...God at Work

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I think this is the only truth that keeps me going. It keeps me from despairing..from being degusted at myself.

If life were easy it would be sad, because there would be an absence of God working. So I'm thankful even if I have to be thankful through the tears and sleepless nights.

Because if you are in the will of God pain really is the happiest thing.

Ironic I know, but very true.

So maybe I can't see what is going on in life, but I can see God working and that is all that really matters.

...and it's Saturday.

According to the department stores there are now only 2 shopping days left before Christmas. Or if your the type who enjoys the thrill of a last minute rush of frantically trying to find the perfect gift that no longer exists there are 3 shopping Saturdays left.

For me there is now just one Saturday left to do homework. I think I could use another Saturday...actually I did have a few more Saturdays they were just spent doing other more uh important things than homework.

I am glad though for just one Saturday left to school work. This means Saturdays are coming where I can clean house and make a few things in the kitchen and of course make a large mess.

Did you know to that in just 2 Saturdays I will have only one semester of school left? Did you also know that  I thought Christmas time would be the perfect time to end my freshmen year of college?

I didn't though because God has a way of giving us the strength to do things we never thought possible. Maybe it was a lot of little things, but too me they are very big things. Things that sometimes take me breath away, because of how big God showed Himself to be in them.

I said that because of our amazing Hebrews teacher who teaching us through chapter eleven. I think that chapter is the essence of awesomeness, but that is just my opinion.

In the opinion of another "God is just awesome". And I would have to agree.

...tired.

I didn't want to come back from Thanksgiving break. I wanted to go home...the place where I could curl up on the couch any time I liked... the place where there is no pressing duties...the place where I sleep in my own room.

I wanted more than a change scenery though.

I wanted a change of life. Just for a few days to be able to be free from the struggle of my sin nature. Just to be perfect and have to work so hard to avoid pitfalls.


Because I was tired.

I get tired of being frustrated. Tired of feeling regret when I do things I shouldn't. 

I never tire though of basking in God's faithfulness. Never do I tire of looking for all of those little ways God's works in a day.

I get tired of seeing myself for who I am, but I never wish to get tired of seeing God for who He is. Letting a heavenly view replace a earthly view.Somehow that is where I stop being tired and start feeling strengthened

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thankful

I’m thankful for everything this Thanksgiving…yeah I know generic, but here are the moments that weren’t so generic to me.

Maybe it was the day I watched my brother marry his best friend with utter joy all over his face.

I’m thankful for all those phone calls…probably thousands and thousands of minutes of just being mentored by my family over the phone.

Today there was two of my cousins’’ families who had an empty place at the table. I remember so well Thanksgiving Day last year going to their house and seeing the table full of family…and before Christmas my uncle was home with the Lord. The painful separation here on earth will be forgotten as we worship together in glory someday. Christ died so we may live and I'm so grateful.

I saw the grace of God when the dean of women made me an RA. Only by God’s grace I have been able to fulfill this role and only God’s grace prepared me for this time…I’m thankful.

When I go to bed exhausted I’m grateful for every moment I get to spend with the girls at school with spirits so sweet that I can hardly stand it.

A new message in my inbox warms my heart when it’s not just another spam, but a real letter with tidbits dripping with encouragement.

When I get make a big mess and scrub a sink full of dishes I couldn’t be more thankful to do what I love to do.

Friendships have gone deeper than I ever imagined and it has been so sweet to laugh and freely share anything.

Over and over again this year I was thankful for every single time when I didn’t know what was going to happen, but I knew God was in control. Sure enough every time He was faithful.

All these moments happened by God’s grace…so just maybe that is what I am most thankful for.

...handsome blessings

This Thanksgiving I'm thankful for so many things...but there is a certain topic that is going to make a blog post.

My 3 very big brothers.

I think they are witty, full of funny ideas and just very amusing in general.

Yet, are so very serious about  God, life, their families, and even their little sister.

These are the boy who were a threesome until one day came along their baby sister.  Even though this little girl was quite stubborn and rather rude at times they never stopped loving her. Then one day I saw the friends that had been there along.

I quote my brothers and talk to them about nearly everything and yes I think they are quite stellar.

There are many things that could be shocking to a young lady, but when you have brothers life is just looked at in a different way.

So I'm glad for what God did. Giving my parents a baby and giving me the best brothers ever.

Yes these are three of my handsomest blessings this Thanksgiving.